Fear

Surprisingly, yesterday I started realizing actually I am very weak! It is not about people say I am weak but I feel the weakness of my within. I am always "escaping" and running away from everything. In the past, I play computer games, watch movies, reading, day dreaming and etc. are actually trying to keep my brain busy so I don't have time to think about the problems I need to face! Honestly, I find me myself are too fear/afraid of facing the real me, I am afraid of quiet! That is also why I need music and doing meaningless things to keep myself "busy". May be there are more reasons but this is what I see and feel now. Usually I will hold my emotional feelings and do that explain it. Now I feel may be I should just release my feeling, feel my anger, sadness, and everything. Then fix the problems and sharing my feeling with my dear.